2019 New Years Resolutions

Hello, Beautiful People of the Internet,

2019 is here, a new year has started but don't expect any of the "New Year, New Me" gumption from me. Last year I made a list of 2018 Resolutions, I was proud of myself when checking off the list, I had achieved 6/10 of all my goals and the rest I had still tried my best at (apart from drinking more water, anyone got any tips?). Pleased with my results I realised that during 2018 I only checked my list maybe once? I started to wonder if there was any reason for me to write a new list, everything I had achieved I wanted to continue and the goals I hadn't, I already had plans, steps, and budgets in place for the future.

I took a moment to appreciate that I was actually happy about my 6/10 success rate, rather than belittling myself for the 4/10 extra that I should have achieved. It wasn't the end of the world that I hadn't achieved 100% and I didn't see myself as a failure, I succeeded. I almost cried, noticing, at that moment, just how far I have made headway on my mental health recovery these past few years.
I could have resolved to continue on my journey or my 100 Days Without anxiety but I know I will do that anyway, the same with blogging goals, communications and more. I could resolve to get fitter and stick to a gym schedule, but I'm not a fan of gyms, that I actually do exercise on a daily and regular basis and that it was an unnecessary pressure to put on myself.

I don't have a "New Year, New Me" attitude because actually, I like who I am. I've worked very hard for the past few years to get to a place similar to where I am now, and I know I'm not going to give up any of my self-care when I finally see the rewards of looking after myself. (I'm not saying this because I'm big headed but because it's the first time in what feels like forever, that I like what I see in the mirror, what I feel inside) I know I will make more progress, I still have a ways to go on this journey, but I now know whatever progress I do make will be because of me, not because of some list of faults that need correcting or a New Years Resolution.

So, 2019, I'm going to be unapologetically myself and continue doing my best on this incredible journey.

Thanks for Reading, I hope you had a fab New Years, and I wish you all the best for 2019.