Day 30 Without Anxiety

Job Application

What's The Challenge?
To apply for Jobs

Why The Anxiety?
Who doesn't get anxious applying for a job? Over the past year and a bit any time I have gone to apply for a job I have completely chickened out, convincing myself I'm not good enough for the position I'm looking at, and eventually I end up not applying. I've been working on my confidence and finally feel ready to start applying to different places. 

Anxiety before?🔴🔴🔴🔴🔴🔴🔴⭕⭕⭕
My negative thought pattern starts kicking into gear as I'm searching for Jobs, "I'm not good enough for this", "someone else could do this better than me", etc etc. I remind myself of the previous 29 challenges I have completed and posted and all the other small targets I have set myself and achieved (that haven't been blogged about). I start to believe in myself a little more whilst browsing through listings, and use search engine filters to help me find something that suits what I want and what would suit me best during this time in my recovery process. I can feel my mind snowballing, and anxieties and scenarios about interviews and first days seep in. I have to remind myself a few times that at this moment in time, I'm just applying, and not to look into the future or worry about future steps. I'm just doing an application. 

Anxiety During?🔴🔴🔴🔴🔴⭕⭕⭕⭕⭕
When I'm sharpening up my cv, typing out a cover letter and filling out any information on an application form I am entirely focused on the task at hand. There are little niggles of doubt that still try to seep through but somehow I find my groove and am able to complete everything until I get to the end 'submit' button. This is when I pause and freeze, I have just completed a ten-minute survey about my personality and work ethic, why do I feel apprehensive about clicking this little box? I have to take a second to use breathing techniques and reassure myself once again that it's just clicking a button, its just an application. Sure enough, I end up clicking the button, completing another challenge, and sighing with relief. 

Anxiety After? 🔴🔴🔴🔴🔴🔴⭕⭕⭕⭕
There are a few minutes in which the thoughts "well, that wasn't scary?", "Why was I so anxious?", "I can do that again." are at the forefront of my mind and I proceed to send a few more application before the terror comes back. "Will I get a reply?", "Will I get any feedback?", "Could I have done something better?", "What If I don't get an interview?" "What if I do get an interview?" The doubt and questions flood into my mind and I close the laptop and walk away, I make a snack, eat and then take my dog on a walk to clear my head. (little tip: Going for a walk is one of the best ways to help clear my head and remain calm.)

Update?
Stay Tuned for Day 32 to find out more!

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